Vanessa Lawson @vanessamilitude

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Vanessa Lawson @vanessamilitude Media

Woke up yesterday with a headache and feeling generally detached/distant. I fought it for a little bit but soon recognized that the best path was acceptance. It's not always easy to remember because my instinct is often to try to escape or avoid the discomfort of these emotions (or lack of). But experience has proven that the more I give up control and just be, the quicker my perspective changes.
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So I took some deep breaths; I told my partner honestly how I was feeling when he asked; I cuddled my Éowyn for a bit. We went about our #dateday plans and at some point I realized I was laughing and having natural conversations. The fog had lifted without me even realizing it.
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#patience #practice #universe #universalwisdom  #buddhistprinciples #pemachodron #pemachödrön #acceptance #selflove #love #mentalhealth #selfcare #growth #change #positivity #art #yoga #stretch #anxiety #depression #liveyourtruth #honesty #vulnerable #vulnerability #protectyourpeace #communication #trusttheprocess

Woke up yesterday with a headache and feeling generally detached/distant. I fought it for a little bit but soon recognized that the best path was acceptance. It's not always easy to remember because my instinct is often to try to escape or avoid the discomfort of these emotions (or lack of). But experience has proven that the more I give up control and just be, the quicker my perspective changes. . So I took some deep breaths; I told my partner honestly how I was feeling when he asked; I cuddled my Éowyn for a bit. We went about our #dateday plans and at some point I realized I was laughing and having natural conversations. The fog had lifted without me even realizing it. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #patience #practice #universe #universalwisdom #buddhistprinciples #pemachodron #pemachödrön #acceptance #selflove #love #mentalhealth #selfcare #growth #change #positivity #art #yoga #stretch #anxiety #depression #liveyourtruth #honesty #vulnerable #vulnerability #protectyourpeace #communication #trusttheprocess

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Last week I decided to ask my therapist for my diagnoses, if there were any. I've wanted to know for some time but felt weird about asking, like I didn't want to look like I was trying to be

Last week I decided to ask my therapist for my diagnoses, if there were any. I've wanted to know for some time but felt weird about asking, like I didn't want to look like I was trying to be "special." There's a part of me that recognizes this is just my own internalized biases about mental health and, like my counselor said, you wouldn't feel ashamed to ask your primary care physician for a diagnosis of an illness or condition. So, I asked. . I'm not hugely surprised about any of them but knowing the names means I can research and learn about them without worrying so much that I'm planting problems in my brain. I feel better prepared and stronger having knowledge about my body, my health; logic helps me feel anchored. . Just a reminder for everyone that it's not any more shameful to have struggles with mental health than it is to have struggles with physical health. It is not attention- seeking to want to know what's going on with your body, including your mind. Your mental health is a significant part of your overall health and you deserve to care for yourself in whatever way you need. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #patience #practice #majordepressivedisorder #generalizedanxietydisorder #ptsd #anxiety #depression #therapy #counseling #learn #grow #acceptance #selflove #love #mentalhealth #selfcare #growth #change #liveyourtruth #honesty #vulnerable #vulnerability #protectyourpeace #communication #trusttheprocess

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Wore this dress as part of a Cheshire cat costume last Fall then promptly forgot it. Even though it's comfortable and makes me feel cute, it definitely challenges me to wear something so form-fitting. Historically, I've felt like I was required to conceal my shape for others' comfort; I perceived that I should be ashamed of my body and so I was. My levels of confidence/self love/mental fortitude fluctuate and  I'm  grateful that today I'm in a place to be able to challenge those falsehoods that have too long hindered my growth.
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#feelingmyself #thisisforme #bodycon #dress #cute #gray #comfy #mentalhealth #curvy #workattire #workingonme #growth #selfie #selfcare #selflove #workingonit #challenge #change #challengeyourself #stayouttamydms #fancy #torrid #curves #fat #booty #sassy

Wore this dress as part of a Cheshire cat costume last Fall then promptly forgot it. Even though it's comfortable and makes me feel cute, it definitely challenges me to wear something so form-fitting. Historically, I've felt like I was required to conceal my shape for others' comfort; I perceived that I should be ashamed of my body and so I was. My levels of confidence/self love/mental fortitude fluctuate and I'm grateful that today I'm in a place to be able to challenge those falsehoods that have too long hindered my growth. . #feelingmyself #thisisforme #bodycon #dress #cute #gray #comfy #mentalhealth #curvy #workattire #workingonme #growth #selfie #selfcare #selflove #workingonit #challenge #change #challengeyourself #stayouttamydms #fancy #torrid #curves #fat #booty #sassy

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So, this is the kind of shit that I get in my DMs on a semi regular basis, and I know I'm by no means the only woman that does. I almost never respond but once in awhile I do just to see if maybe I'm wrong; maybe it's NOT going to get gross. Or maybe I can get them to really see what's wrong with what they're doing. So far I've always been wrong.
(The last slide boggles my mind-

So, this is the kind of shit that I get in my DMs on a semi regular basis, and I know I'm by no means the only woman that does. I almost never respond but once in awhile I do just to see if maybe I'm wrong; maybe it's NOT going to get gross. Or maybe I can get them to really see what's wrong with what they're doing. So far I've always been wrong. (The last slide boggles my mind- "I didn't think you'd look at it, I just wanted to say it." What?!) . The point of me posting these is not for outrage, it's for exposure, for teaching. I blacked out his identity because it's not about going after him specifically. It's so those that say that sexual harassment isn't happening all the time or that it's not that big a deal can see a glaring, disgusting, shockingly common example. I'm fortunate that I am at least separated from this particular creep by the internet but that's definitely not always the case. . How about we start treating ALL humans like people instead of playthings? Teach your children that it is not ok to objectify others, even on the internet. Don't just hope that they'll pick up the knowledge and morals they need- TEACH them, with words and actions. Do some research yourself on the subject. Challenge your own habits, reactions, and perceptions. There will likely always be those that think this type of behavior is not problematic but we need to make sure that we're dismantling the systems that created those people in the first place, that we're not complacent, and that they don't get passes for putrid behavior. . #iamnothereforyourentertainment #mybodymyrules #creep #stayoutofmydms #stopsexualizingwomen #wearenotyourplaythings #ioweyounothing #hystericalwoman #andyousaytheresnotaproblem #sexualharassment #nomas #nomore #awareness #notawitchhunt #exposure #riseup #respect #harassment #allpeopledeserverespect #accountability #creepsofinstagram #instagramisnotadstingsite #creeper #creepersofinstagram

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Another forgotten dress, found in the back of my closet (plus the only pair of gladiator sandals I've ever found that fit!)
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#torrid #supercute #tshirtdress #comfy #cute #substituteteacher #teaching #cutout #navy #haventshavedmylegsinweeks #dgaf #toowarmforlayers #selfie #fashion #swishy #greeneyes #gladiatorsandals

Another forgotten dress, found in the back of my closet (plus the only pair of gladiator sandals I've ever found that fit!) . #torrid #supercute #tshirtdress #comfy #cute #substituteteacher #teaching #cutout #navy #haventshavedmylegsinweeks #dgaf #toowarmforlayers #selfie #fashion #swishy #greeneyes #gladiatorsandals

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