Vanessa Lawson @vanessamilitude

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Vanessa Lawson @vanessamilitude Media

Feeling like I'm moving into another time of transition and growth. Reaffirming my worth to myself, realigning my needs and my actions. It's hard work, it takes focus and refocusing. I am capable. I can do hard things.
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#thisisforme #acceptance #prose #growth #refocus #focus #myworthisnotinmyappearance #effyourbeautystandards #icandohardthings  #selflove #love #mentalhealth #health #physicalhealth #selfcare #change #positivity #art #yoga #stretch #anxiety #liveyourtruth #honesty #vulnerable #thrive #vulnerability #protectyourpeace #therapy #communication #trust

Feeling like I'm moving into another time of transition and growth. Reaffirming my worth to myself, realigning my needs and my actions. It's hard work, it takes focus and refocusing. I am capable. I can do hard things. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #thisisforme #acceptance #prose #growth #refocus #focus #myworthisnotinmyappearance #effyourbeautystandards #icandohardthings #selflove #love #mentalhealth #health #physicalhealth #selfcare #change #positivity #art #yoga #stretch #anxiety #liveyourtruth #honesty #vulnerable #thrive #vulnerability #protectyourpeace #therapy #communication #trust

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I've been thinking a lot lately about how so much of my life has been ruled by fear. I didn't really recognize it as fear for a long time- I thought there were a bunch of unrelated hindrances and hangups. But the connecting thread is fear.
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Largely it's fear of what people are going to think of me, my looks, my actions. I've come to realize, on one level, that it truly does not matter. I imagine a scenario from all the angles, especially from the potential worst. What's the worst that a person is likely to do if they don't approve of my outfit? And if they do that...so?
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And so that's what I tell myself when my concerns about cellulite and belly rolls keep me at home- mine is the only opinion that must have bearing on my life. Other opinions only have an impact if I let them.  It's easy and inevitable to fall back into the long-cultivated attitudes of not feeling good enough; they've been a way of life for decades. Learning that I'm worthy of happiness and have the right to live exactly how I want to, regardless of what others think, is a process. In fact, it's been a two steps forward, one step back kind of process. But it feels good to still be making progress.
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#thisisforme #acceptance #curves #rolls #fat #selflove #love #effyourbeautystandards #cellulite #cellulit #selfcare #change #positivity #art #yoga #stretch #anxiety #liveyourtruth #honesty #vulnerable #vulnerability #booty #whooty #protectyourpeace #trust #yogapants

I've been thinking a lot lately about how so much of my life has been ruled by fear. I didn't really recognize it as fear for a long time- I thought there were a bunch of unrelated hindrances and hangups. But the connecting thread is fear. . Largely it's fear of what people are going to think of me, my looks, my actions. I've come to realize, on one level, that it truly does not matter. I imagine a scenario from all the angles, especially from the potential worst. What's the worst that a person is likely to do if they don't approve of my outfit? And if they do that...so? . And so that's what I tell myself when my concerns about cellulite and belly rolls keep me at home- mine is the only opinion that must have bearing on my life. Other opinions only have an impact if I let them. It's easy and inevitable to fall back into the long-cultivated attitudes of not feeling good enough; they've been a way of life for decades. Learning that I'm worthy of happiness and have the right to live exactly how I want to, regardless of what others think, is a process. In fact, it's been a two steps forward, one step back kind of process. But it feels good to still be making progress. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #thisisforme #acceptance #curves #rolls #fat #selflove #love #effyourbeautystandards #cellulite #cellulit #selfcare #change #positivity #art #yoga #stretch #anxiety #liveyourtruth #honesty #vulnerable #vulnerability #booty #whooty #protectyourpeace #trust #yogapants

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I've been handling a higher level of anxiety and unease this week. I think it has multiple roots- not having been home much in the past couple weeks and family/social pressures, to name a couple. As often happens when I'm off my routine, I haven't been treating my body as well as usual in terms of food and movement, which affects my physical being which affects my mental being.
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I can feel growth happening, too, though; having a lot of thinking time has led to having epiphanies and making connections. So, I'm writing several things right now. I keep feeling the urge to share them before they're ready just to get the thoughts out and recorded so I can clear my head but still refer to them. But, they're not ready. So here are some adorable puppies in the meantime and a reminder to self that everything is impermanent, including the rougher days.
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#writing #thisisforme #acceptance #selflove #love #mentalhealth #health #physicalhealth #selfcare #change #positivity #art #yoga #stretch #anxiety #dogsitting #impermanence #liveyourtruth #honesty #vulnerable #vulnerability #protectyourpeace #family #communication #trust

I've been handling a higher level of anxiety and unease this week. I think it has multiple roots- not having been home much in the past couple weeks and family/social pressures, to name a couple. As often happens when I'm off my routine, I haven't been treating my body as well as usual in terms of food and movement, which affects my physical being which affects my mental being. . I can feel growth happening, too, though; having a lot of thinking time has led to having epiphanies and making connections. So, I'm writing several things right now. I keep feeling the urge to share them before they're ready just to get the thoughts out and recorded so I can clear my head but still refer to them. But, they're not ready. So here are some adorable puppies in the meantime and a reminder to self that everything is impermanent, including the rougher days. . . . . . . . . . . . . #writing #thisisforme #acceptance #selflove #love #mentalhealth #health #physicalhealth #selfcare #change #positivity #art #yoga #stretch #anxiety #dogsitting #impermanence #liveyourtruth #honesty #vulnerable #vulnerability #protectyourpeace #family #communication #trust

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My view for the next few mornings 😍 Really looking forward to a week full of puppy cuddles, wildlife watching, and art on the deck. #petsitting #petsitter #rurallife #homefortheweek
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#dogs #dogsitting #painting #puppycuddles #calm #nature #rural #ky #driveky #kentucky #travel #art #patio #bluegrass #dog #dogsofinstagram #love #sunset #photography #tea

My view for the next few mornings 😍 Really looking forward to a week full of puppy cuddles, wildlife watching, and art on the deck. #petsitting #petsitter #rurallife #homefortheweek . . . . . . . . . . . #dogs #dogsitting #painting #puppycuddles #calm #nature #rural #ky #driveky #kentucky #travel #art #patio #bluegrass #dog #dogsofinstagram #love #sunset #photography #tea

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A glimpse into my home: Matt's trying to get a choke on Jackson (according to the audio, with Jackson's own hands), Éowyn's just along for the ride, and the prize for winning or losing is Margaritas.  @chipchutney @matthewgoettel

A glimpse into my home: Matt's trying to get a choke on Jackson (according to the audio, with Jackson's own hands), Éowyn's just along for the ride, and the prize for winning or losing is Margaritas. @chipchutney @matthewgoettel

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